Sitting with sadness
Posted on May 4th, 2008
by 
TJ
TJ
people are walking away from this path I am walking
Alone, yes I am...I honor those who are walking toward their own destiny..
Intimacy is when I feel connection, or when a friend shares their story..They are trusting that I will treat their story with repect, and I do.
I am sad to be in the process of legal dissconnection from my husband, we were never connected at the best of times.Phew...Sad, however, I did learn alot.
I do not believe that I will ever marry again. I hope that one day I will find my soulmate( if they exist?) I hope I do not beome cynical about true/real love...
I am sad because I do not know if I will ever have a child.
I am sad because my relationship with both my parents is distant.
I am sad that the scars of abandonment still linger.
I am sad because my tears are locked up and frozen, even though I am trying to access the pain and let it flow.
I am sad because, I feel trapped.And I realise that only I can free myself.
Underneath all this sadness, is a grateful person, for all the blessings...Thankyou...
Alone, yes I am...I honor those who are walking toward their own destiny..
Intimacy is when I feel connection, or when a friend shares their story..They are trusting that I will treat their story with repect, and I do.
I am sad to be in the process of legal dissconnection from my husband, we were never connected at the best of times.Phew...Sad, however, I did learn alot.
I do not believe that I will ever marry again. I hope that one day I will find my soulmate( if they exist?) I hope I do not beome cynical about true/real love...
I am sad because I do not know if I will ever have a child.
I am sad because my relationship with both my parents is distant.
I am sad that the scars of abandonment still linger.
I am sad because my tears are locked up and frozen, even though I am trying to access the pain and let it flow.
I am sad because, I feel trapped.And I realise that only I can free myself.
Underneath all this sadness, is a grateful person, for all the blessings...Thankyou...
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QaR
May 2008 
it is a ride hey…who knows anything, we just propel, forward. looking back over our shoulder, using our prior experiences to compare, then turning to look towards the horizon, who knows what lays there, but it is somewhere you have not been before..i am sad you are sad…x
i speak form my own experience, this sadness is your cocoon, the beautiful being that will
emerge will be the vehicle that will travel this latter part of the story that is you. Cry deeply,
mourn, get angry . in a cyclical fashion will you feel these and many more but a day will
come when you radiate the love again. i am sorry for your pain but for the sake of the
world, persevere.
onelove
warren
TJ, I have no words of advice; but perhaps you will reach out and touch someone. perhaps on one of the pods where people are stirring for action. Or perhaps, go out and get lost in a spring day.
Thankyou xxx
I was very moved by your honesty to reveal this pain, in time I hope I can find my own strength in myself to move on and be a stronger me, its so hard to release myself from all the invisible attachments inside that keep me connected to the person I shared my life with, but, I know there as to come a point when I have to let go and become independently optimistic for the road ahead to represent myself on the journey, to new people I might be able to connect with and be friends. I share your pain and hopes…Thank-you.